mid-degree crisis

Have you ever had one of those moments where you stop and think,

“What the heck am I doing??”

Whether you have one of those moments

  • cracking an egg into the sink instead of the bowl
  • taking a mindless turn in the complete opposite direction of your destination
  • staying up late wasting time on Facebook

not that I would know any of this from experience, I assure you

Regardless, I think we all have these moments!

I had a big one of these moments last week. School started, time to get back to routine, time to continue working on the degree I am pursuing. Degree…what degree?? See, I had deemed myself ‘pre-nursing’ because that is what I was working towards. I know I want to be a nurse, I know it’s what I’m called to do, and those were my intentions as far as school went. But then I asked God,

“HOW ARE YOU GOING TO GET ME THERE?!?!”

I don’t have a 4.0 GPA, science has a history of kicking my butt and I refuse to go neck-deep in debt to pay for school.

Hello, mid-degree crisis, it’s not nice to see you again.

This is my

“What the heck am I doing??”

moment.

 

I was confused, annoyed, pouty and desiring to know what my future has in store. Then I stumbled across this post from Angela over at Oh She Glows, one of my favorite blogs. It is appropriately titled. “Graduation Fears” and in the post she goes on to explain how we are not failures for not having our lives planned out, we are not failures for changing our minds and we are not failures period.

 

I believe that through this post and the bloggers who commented on it was God’s way of giving me comfort and reminding me that I’m not the only one who feels like a mess. I believe that He has given me desires and passions, and that it is so important to follow those passions and chase after Him because then I will be living in His perfect will.

Then I asked myself; what do I love? What is it that I am passionate about? Where are my strengths?

 

I know that I will be a nurse eventually. God has a plan, maybe not a straight shot to a BSN but He’s got a plan. He has also given me a brain and enough guidance and direction to know what to do with it. I can say that I am considering a few different options but will continue to be willing to go in whatever way He leads.

 

Until then, I am continuing in school, continuing to do what I love and follow my passions and love every moment I am blessed with. Hopefully no more degree crises in the near future.

 

 

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Lately…

I have been reading this:

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Cheering on some of that:

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Baking some of this:

 

Drinking a little of this:

 

Eating lots of these:

 

Drinking a lot of that:

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and soaking in:

 

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”

and:

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

 

Today I did not succumb to laziness

Confession: Saturday morning got the best of me and the lazies won, so I didn’t start training like I was supposed to. BUT today was a new day and I overcame the lazies.

These bad boys were getting pretty lonely in the corner front of my closet until this morning. After Statistics at 8am, which I affectionately refer to as, “The worst idea I’ve ever had,” and breakfast, I made my first trip to the gym in…two weeks. Yep! Two whole weeks. I was scared. I didn’t know if I remembered how to run. And if I didn’t remember I certainly didn’t want to be on a treadmill where other people could see. It felt funny and weird at first, the bottoms of my feet felt like they did when I was logging 14 mile training runs, I had to remind myself of correct posture…”It’s only been 10 minutes?! Ughh..” but I kept on! For having not worked out in fifteen days, I would say the 3.5 miles was a success.

What would a training run be without a wedgie halfway through? No training run of mine! It never fails. It’s even better when on a treadmill because you can’t pick it because you know that everyone behind you will see and you are only on mile 1.5. I hope someone at the gym got a  laugh today.

 

Want to know what makes me laugh?

 

 

See, my dog loves the snow. Whenever I let her outside to play, the first thing she does is bury her nose in the snow and roll around in it, notice the evidence? Then she proceeds to hop around in the snow like a rabbit. I’m not kidding.

Her winter nickname is Honey the Snow Bunny

Honey and I wish you all a good night!

 

 

reasons why I like my diet.

I have been asked daily ‘how’s the diet going?’ and call me crazy, but I like it. The diet that is. Here is why:

1. I can pronounce all the foods I eat. No Slimfast shakes or frozen meals over here!

2. it forces me to cook real food that is delicious

3. I am in total control over what goes into my body

4. it is natural

5. I see results daily

6. it is sustainable

7. it positively affects my body, mind and soul

Today is day 14 and it seems like those loading days of cheeseburgers and Taco Bell were months ago! I am happily making much better progress than I was the last time I did this diet, losing a pound a day. I know, I know, ‘That can’t be healthy!’ and sometimes I wonder if it is myself, but it honestly is. The Stimulock drops reset my hypothalamus, adrenal and pituitary glands which cause my body to release all the stored body fat that has been packed away. So while maintaining a strict diet, my body is using thousands of calories per day of stored energy that it otherwise would have no use for. It sounds different than any other diet because it is. You can now consider yourself updated 🙂

um, did I do that?


I made sure to attach a large photo so you could clearly see what I have done. My palms are sweaty and my heart is beating a little faster than normal. Did this really just happen?

When I got home from class this morning I was highly motivated to make a solid half marathon training schedule. And register in the same day? Gulp. My last half marathon I allowed myself a good 6 months of preparation, and most of that was mental. This half marathon? 72 days. Rock the Parkway here I come.

 

It looks like those big dreams I wrote about yesterday about are more real than I realized. This is just bringing me one race closer to the full marathon I plan to complete by the end of the year!

 

 

Question: Do you have any countdowns going on in your life? What for? Please share!

 

 

overwhelmed

I am completely in awe of and flabbergasted of the responses I had on my previous post. The outpouring of support including comments, messages, emails and texts I received were not what I expected at all. I want to thank all of you though, and I’m not sure it is possible to express all of my gratitude. Can I bake you cookies, cupcakes, something?? Your support is so motivating and at times like those it makes me never want to give up on my dreams.

 

Cheers and thanks to my readers, let’s all continue to dream big!